'cause life's too short to spend alone in misery"

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I'm Sabrina, and let me start out by saying I don't care if you like me or not, just be real with that. If you don't like me, let me know, and I won't try to be cool with you. I'm over all this high school drama people keep trying to bring into my life. Don't judge me before you get to know me, I may come off as a mean sarcastic person who doesn't take anything seriously, or I may come off as the fat girl trying too hard to be someone she's not, but in reality I'm neither. I'm a deep person who just wants someone to talk to, someone who will understand where I'm coming from in a conversation. My mind is like the ocean, it always has thoughts coming and leaving my mind, like a wave, and as a thought comes, sometimes I'd like to share it with someone, all I need is for you to be willing to hear it. I'm not going to force you to listen to me, though, I'm not one of those kind of people. I have come to realize what money means to this world and I hate it, you can't get anywhere in life living off a 200 dollar check every two weeks, it's just impossible. I'm surprised I'm not skinny, considering I can only afford pretty much one meal a day.
I'm a musically talented person as well. I can pick up an instrument and have it down pretty well in a month, not be an expert, but be pretty well. I can play the clarinet, bass clarinet, flute, bass, and some guitar. If I wanted to learn more I could, but it's just not as appealing to me anymore. Considering I'm in independent studies, yes, I am, don't make anything of it, they don't have band classes, and so I'd have to buy/rent my own instrument and pay for lessons, and I'm not up for that. Pretty much money's the only thing holding me back from doing the things I want to do most.

I love going to concerts, that's like my passion. I love the feeling of adrenaline you get as you're crushed either up against the barricade or another individual, the feeling you get when the band you went to see comes on and the crowd erupts in screams, when everyone around you knows the lyrics to the songs like you do. That feeling is irreplaceable, and I always waste my money to go to concerts. I even sometimes go to multiple concerts on a tour, if I like the band enough. For instance, within one year I've seen the band Scary Kids Scaring Kids eleven times, isn't that ridiculous? When AFI was on tour, I think I saw them like seven times at least, but it was because they wouldn't come around even half as much as Scary Kids. My dream has always been to go on a full tour with one of my favorite bands, whether it's following them or going with them, either would make me the happiest girl in the world.
I always have high expectations, and they, most of the time, get shot down. This has made me slightly more negative about every situation that comes in my path. One thing I think very low of is guys. Until a guy can prove me wrong, which (hint, hint) I'd like one to, I believe they don't want love, they don't care about what makes a girl happy, they just care about themselves. They don't care about your intelligence or personality, only how skinny you are or how big your rack and ass are. They use degrading words to make you feel worse than you are, so that you don't realize you can do better. This is probably the reason I don't have boyfriends or crushes, because I'm a stubborn bitch who will probably always think this. I know when I grow old, I'm most likely going to be the crazy cat lady who knows everyone on the block's business, and, at this point, I really, really don't care.

Death, as morbid as this may sound, is something I'm greatly looking forward to. Since I am a spiritual and religious person, I don't care if you are or not, I believe that there is an afterlife, once again, I don't care if you do or not. All of the stuff that happens on earth molds you into who you are so you can become pure in your afterlife. If we just died, and that was it, what would be the point in living? When people die, sure, it's sad to us on earth, but they're finally free. No more pain, no more regret, no more sorrow, they're just able to relax and rejoice, they are finally free. After having lost quite a few people in the past few years, it has helped me realized that this world is not the end, it's just the beginning. Make what you can out of life now, but just remember it doesn't end here, this is only the beginning.

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